I’ve always been the type of person who wants to do everything that excites me because it brings me fulfillment and joy; but because of that, I often find myself in situations that I’m not truly excited about because I didn’t think hard enough before committing to them. Even though these instances burn me out, I keep finding myself repeating the same cycle of mistakes over and over again and it frustrates me that I still can’t crack the code of balance and contentment.Continue reading
I never thought of myself as an overly-anxious person but as I reached adulthood, I started experiencing short bursts of anxiety when I wake up in the morning. It’s not too bad, but I do end up taking fifteen or more minutes just face-down on the bed while grasping my chest to wait for my heartbeat to even out before getting up.Continue reading
So I almost drowned. It didn’t happen anywhere dramatic like swimming against rushing tides while competing at a triathlon., it was just me being ballsy at the deep-end of the pool.Continue reading
I used to think that I worked well under pressure given my background in organizing events but when I started work at an IT services company as a Project Manager, I found that I apparently don’t respond too well to it especially when it comes in the form of an angry client screaming at me through the phone.Continue reading
Becoming aware of my workaholic tendencies really took some time. I’ve always considered myself to be someone industrious and that it was a trait to be proud of; but one day two years ago when I came home from work, I immediately took a bath and headed to bed exhausted and just before I dozed of to sleep I heard my sister say “yeesh” as if she was scared of what she was seeing, did I realize that I needed to slow down. This blogpost was requested by one of my ko-fi donors and is something I’m excited to finally start writing about.Continue reading →
“Well, when you are really involved in this completely engaging process of creating something new, as this man is, he doesn’t have enough attention left over to monitor how his body feels, or his problems at home. He can’t feel event that he is hungry or tired. His body disappears, like none of us do, to really do well something that requires a lot of concentration, and at the same time to feel that he exists.”
– Excerpt from transcript of Mihaly Csikszentmihalyi’s TED Talk
I didn’t find much value in this phrase when I was younger. Maybe it was because I was that much of a workaholic (my sister calls it “being extra”) that I thought the way that I lived back then was the balance because of all that I expected of myself. If I wasn’t doing schoolwork, I’d be doing volunteer work, or taking freelance projects, or doing work for my part-time job. There wasn’t much room for anything else and I kept that momentum up until a year or two after I started working.
It’s been more than a year that I’ve held the Project Manager position at Symph and I’ve picked up things along my journey that really helped me continue my learning as a PM. I’m not a pro, far from it. I graduated with a bachelor’s degree in Information Technology with no class on “Management” whatsoever. The only thing, I suppose, that qualified me for the role was my years of doing volunteer work for the community; specifically, organizing events and looking for and communicating with sponsors.
Recently, I’ve been more and more aware of how mindful actions affect your daily output- how they affect your relationships, how you feel about your work at the end of the day, and how you think about yourself.
I’ve been listening to the Optimal Living Daily podcast these last few weeks which I’ve become a huge fan of, and I noticed that some blogposts that talk about “productivity tools” recommend a lot of tools for the different tasks that you have to deal with on the day-to-day. Though I understand that they do that to give the reader more options to choose from, I don’t agree that one person should be using all of it at the same time.